Why bother telling you any of this......;)

It's true I love to tell my story. I find that over the past 34 (almost 35 years don't rush it) that everything I've ever been through is important. Not because it's my life per se but because it is a life given by God to live out his word. It sounded different in my youth than it does now. Things are changing so quickly in our communities. I rarely find people at total peace, with a smile on their face, just looking for another person to bless simply by saying "Hello". We've been placed on this planet with so much ahead of us to enjoy and to take part in. I find more people feel the burden of placing titles upon themselves. I've chosen to follow Jesus by asking for his salvation for when I die I would reside in paradise with him forever. I want to do what he asks of me (for the most part my 20's were a little hairy). I understand that not all people will understand what that word "salvation" means, but it really just gets right to the point and gives God all the glory: it says he has a purpose for our world and reality and he asks that we follow him and evangelize his name! I get so excited when I think about it! I also chose to become a hairstylist which to some people doesn't mean a whole lot but it's a much harder profession than one may think. You ever stand for more than 10 hours a day 6 days in a row, year after year after year?? It's not such a simple feat yet help a person understand the quality of what you do and what you're after might not match the potential they have with a comb and can of hairspray! Golly have I ever seen a bunch of messes on top of people's heads over the last 17 years! I chose to become a hairstylist not because I wanted to work with hair. I've always wanted to work with people, Hearts rather. I've wanted to inspire people to think about how important they are because they are given a total purpose by God to choose his son and then to live life to the fullest, walking among the lost, and the sick and to bring HIS light to those who are needing it. I've made a ton of mistakes as a Christian annnnnnd a hairstylist. I will admit it is par for the course so that I can become a better version than what I was a minute ago or a week ago or a month ago. For without making a mistake you can not truly learn the lesson. I find myself constantly searching the word and stories in the Bible to find a relationship with ANY situation I go through or my marriage goes through or my business goes through. I find that God gave us these tools, not to shame or become burdened with inadequacies, but rather to try to gain understanding that we have everything we need to achieve. We are afforded forgiveness and we can run the race by standing back up when we fall down and move on with our lives. THAT'S THE KEY POINT THAT I WANT TO MAKE RIGHT THERE. We need to then tell other people about what we have learned so that they too can have hope that things are not over. We can be forgiving of ourselves for what we chose to do then learn the deep rooted lesson in it and share what we are responsible for and how to become accountable one difficulty at a time. It makes a person more genuine and instead of being a superficial waif-like person you get a deep full bodied individual that can go anywhere and do anything because they understand that what God has created he breathed life into fully. It is doing life without truly understanding the deeper meaning in things that we become so insecure. I am walking and talking everywhere I go and find that so many people can only speak on a subject that they are taught on or have a total undivided interest in. If it is not something they have thought about or want to know they find no value. We have started an electronic society (I know I'm also using the internet) where everything we want or relate to is a one on one high five or thumbs up or sad face. We've lost the ability to talk one on one or in large groups so that as a community we can become more aware of the enemy (devil) and how he breaks us down. He has a plan in place to divide us and unless we work against that cause: to become more aware on how to make boundaries on that kind of evil it will divide us. It doesn't have to happen in a hateful way or even breaking the law. Oh no he'll find a way much more sleek and behind the scenes kind of way. His purpose is to break down. Period. If we as a society allow this, things will get worse. I share my story and all the un-likeable parts because in everything that happened there is a lesson to be learned and the responsibility to learn about what happened so that I could start fighting back against the evil that resides in many that walk past me everyday. I am not attacking the flesh, I am attacking what lives within us. If we do not choose our Creator God, what source of spirit do you allow in your life. I learned very quickly as a young girl believing in God, his son Jesus and the Holy Spirit, is different than living in a way that shares it with others. Does this mean that I think I am perfect and am some chosen one to lead the way considering all of my poor choices that I've made or will make? No. I just believe that God will be found in a way that is whole, real, honest, messy or rare. He will be found where it's to the core of who you are. You have to get to the point where you understand everything is created with a purpose and it will be used as he sees fit. I WANT TO BE A PART OF THE JOURNEY. I WANT TO BE USED BY GOD TO SET APART CREATION FROM DAMNATION. I want to share my story with you so you have somebody who can attest to the facts that life isn't always easy and you will make mistakes. You are not worthless or useless just because you may have found yourself making decisions leading you down a dangerous path. I've been there. Sometimes you have to ride that out just so you can learn the lesson to it's fullest. Ask yourself this: Did every person who ever read the Bible no longer sin in the future just because they read of someone else's similar journey. No, they had to make their own mistakes even if it was the exact same mistake for the sole purpose of learning the true lesson. Not all mistakes are created equal. Some mistakes can literally change your whole life in a second, some can even end it all together. The one passion I believe I've had since birth is people. I believe if we give ourselves a chance to thrive we will see a different nation under God indivisable. A nation who understands it's true purpose was to thrive while praising God for our existence to love the things we humans love. It may sound a bit hokey to you, but it's the world I'm so longing for.........